Pounds and Inches LOST!!!

YAY!!! I weighed and measured myself today and lo and behold I lost a total of 6.8 pounds and 1.5 inches in my waist, 1 inch in my hips and .5 inches in my upper arms. WOO HOO!!! I thought I would have done bad because I had a choc. chip brownie yesterday. Oops!! Yea, the chocolate craving took over me and I gave in. I regretted it sooo very bad, though. I'm just happy it hasn't hit me yet. I'm going to do more cardio today to make up for it. I mean, I can't beat myself up over ONE stupid brownie now can I??? NO!!!
So, today I'm going shopping for a new cute shirt to wear out Friday night. I know it doesn't look like I lost almost 7 pounds but I sure do feel like I did. Isn't that all that matters? :)
Mood: GREAT!!
Food: Carnation instant no sugar added breakfast, apple, coffee creamer, healthy grilled cheese, healthy choice soup. chicken breast grilled, corn, green beans, pudding dessert
Exercise: cardio for 25 minutes and shopping!

January 10 Day 6

I know I shouldn't do it so much, but I can't help myself. I have OCD issues up the rear! I got on the scale again. Yea, yea, once a week is what you're supposed to do. Well, bah humbug! I did it anyway! I did get a nice surprise. I lost another pound making exactly 6.4 lost for good! YAY!!! Now, I got up late again so that's probably why, but who cares? It's motivation enough for me to get on that treadmill and do 20 minutes of cardio. So, bahhumbug! LOL

I'm going see a movie or 2 with my BFF. I bought a protein bar and a diet mountain dew. Yes, I know, a soda! Oh no! The gods will frown upon me for having a soda! But, like I said before, Bah humbug!! It's my new word of the day.

Mood: happy

Foods: 1c. f/f milk, carnation instant no sugar added breakfast, grilled chicken made with sea salt, pepper, olive oil, lettuce, f/f .25 cup shredded moz. cheese, 2 egg whites, f/f croutons, 2 servings veggie chips, 1 serving spinach dip, protein bar and 1 c. air popped popcorn and a diet mt. dew (oh my!)

Word of the Day: Bah Humbug!

Day 5 (Friday)

Today was a gym day. I did 10 min. of treadmill and 10 min. of eliptical. I also worked on my lower body for about 20 minutes. I got over a fear of working out in front of people with abs. I hated every minute, but did it anyway. I just cranked up my Ipod and looked straight ahead. It's the ab machine that you have to pretty much stand up on and bring your legs up. Pretty embarrassing for me. My legs and arms are so sore from the previous workouts.

Mood: Sore/Tired

Foods: Carnation instant breakfast no sugar added, 1/2 c. f/f/ milk, apple

coffee with peppermint mocha creamer 1tbsp.

healthy grilled cheese sandwich made with whole wheat bread, soy cheese, no cal. spray butter. Healthy Choice chicken noodle soup

banana

(I went to Applebee's for supper and ordered a grilled chicken oriental salad. I think I gave most of it to Will)

supper is up in the air. If we go out I'll either get a salad or something healthy. I did look up a personal pan veggie pizza online and it's full of veggies and 560 cals. I will have enough calories to spare so I might get it. I know that you can eat pretty much whatever you want if it's small portions. You can make ANYTHING healthy if you just use the right ingredients. I put in the pizza on myfooddiary.com (my most favorite website, EVER!!!) and it came up OK for me to have. So, no, I don't feel guilty eating it! If I do eat it, that is...

5 lbs. gone!

Today is a great day! I know it's soon and it's probably just water weight, or the fact that I slept in really late, but I lost 5 pounds!!! WooHooo!!! I'm pretty ecstatic. ;0) My goal, if I didn't say before, is 50 pounds. That will put me in the single digit size I want. I should go down a size for every 15 or so pounds.
Today is cardio day. I'm going to use my home gym and treadmill for at least 20 minutes. I hope every day is going to be a great day from now on!
Mood: Really sore from the gym
Food:
1 c. f/f milk, carnation instant no sugar added breakfast, apple
2 slices 100% whole wheat sara lee bread, 1 slice soy cheese (healthy grilled cheese sandwich), healthy choice hearty vegetable soup healthy choice is my absolute favorite soup!)
1 tbsp. peppermint/cocoa coffee creamer, 1 c. coffee
grilled chicken salad made with 2 egg whites, 1/2 c. croutons, 1/4 c. shredded f/f cheddar cheese
1 jell-o chocolate singles pudding made with f/f milk and 1/2 quaker cracker jack rice cake crumbled into the pudding with 2tbsp. whipped cream
Totals:
Calories:1190
Carbs:168
Fat:17.9
Protein:84
Fiber:18.2
too much sodium. Need to work on fiber

Day 2

Today was good. I did my 20 minutes of cardio; 10 min. on treadmill and 10 min. on eliptical. I can only workout on the eliptical at the gym. I have everything else I need at home, but that. Oh, well, that's what a gym is for, right? I worked my upper boddy today, as well. The one thing I HAVE to get used to is working out in front of people. I know that everyone is there for the same reason, but I look around at other gym goers so I know they look around, too. I feel like the fat kid in school again hanging out around the jocks and cheerleaders. I understand it's a gym, but why and I always the fat one??? So, that's what I have to work on with myself. Once I talk to someone and have a conversation, it's not too bad. It's the fact that I don't know if I"m being judged or not.
I'm trying different recipes in the Biggest Loser small cookbook my hubby got for me. So far I've had Spinach frittatas for breakfast and hoisin porkchops with mashed sweet potatoes (yesterday). It was REALLY good! I recommend the Biggest Loser Cookboock to anyone. It's pretty simple and delish. 2 things that's a must for me. I'm not much of a cooker. I actually HATE to cook.
Today is going to be the spinach frittatas, healthy grilled cheese sandwich, orange, coffee, chicken breast with hoisin sauce, corn and green beans. I'm going to try to make one of the healthy desserts.

Day One

I did my first workout of the New Year. YAY!!! I actually got up at 4:00am and got ready to go to the gym. It was 20 minutes of cardio on the treadmill and eliptical. I did about 20 minutes of lower body strenght training. Tomorrow is going to be 20 minutes of cardio and abs. I'm excited. Now, it's time to do some housework and catch up on Desperate Housewives.

New Year's Resolution (yes, it's cliche!)

So, this is my New Year's Recolution for 2009. Yes, it's cliche, but this is something that I HAVE to do for my health and happiness.
I start every new year off with the same goal- lose weight! Every January 1 my veins pump pure adrenaline straight to my heart making it thump for joy at the pure thought of a size 8. "I'm going to do it this time! I'm finally going to be that single digit size I've been wanting for years!" I buy new shoes, new workout gear, plan out my food diary for the next 2 weeks and rev up the treadmill. Two weeks later I'm over it. I'm tired. I'm not physically tired, but mentally worn out. I MAY have lost 2-3 pounds, or I may have stayed where I was on New Year's Day. Who knows? All I know is that I can still see my fat and my jeans aren't any looser than they were 2 weeks prior. I'm ticked off now! I give up. Plain and simple, I just give up.
This has happened to me for the past couple years. I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes (insulin dependent) in March 2006. I knew all the bad stuff involved with giving myself shots daily (I'm on the pump now), but no one ever tells you the weight you gain from those daily doses of injections. It's like 20 cc's of pure FAT going into your body to be stored for what seems like eternity. Insulin saved my life and got me fat all at once. I've never had to work so hard in my life for anything as I do to lose weight. I thought a size 12 was fat! HA!!! Try 2 up from that! I've never been so big or unhappy in all my life as I am now. I can't keep blaming health problems or lack of motivation on my weight gain. It's my fault. Pure and simple, MY fault! I did this to myself and I'm the only one that can change it. I have to do it or I will be terribly miserable for the rest of my fat life! So, here's to the New Year. A new year, a new me. Hopefully by my 30th birthday (August 24, 2009) I will have lost at least 50 pounds. Yes, that's a lot, but I can do it. I've been thin before so I know I can do it again. I just have to push harder and run faster than I ever have before! I can do this!
My plan for this next week is cardio at least 5 days, strenght training for at least 2 days mixed with 3 workout videos. I'll do 20 min. of cardio this week, 25 the next, 30 after that and so on. My goal for cardio is 60 min. per day for 5 days. I can split the minutes up throughout the day. I have a gym membership and a home gym at my house. There is nothing that should stop me, but me. So, here goes to the new me of 2009!!!